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I feel very blue. Very melancholic. Its that familiar feeling again. Feeling of at the crossroads again. Yet this time, I am very calm, very composed.

I am thinking of many things. Should things still continue? Should I let go? Can I live with this? Many many questions in my head. Am i overreacting? Or am I really not getting what I need?

What is a relationship that has no emotional intimacy? What is a relationship when one party is so damn scared of exposing himself emotionally? Just because 2 people hold hands and kiss goodbye should it be defined as they are in a relationship? Is that how it should be defined?

Give me courage. I think I need courage, a lot of courage to say certain things.

Sometimes I wish men never exist. Then there would be no men-women love. Then there will be no pain. Then it will never hurt.