My Heart is Painful

Maybe the rain came at the right time now. Wash away my tears together so I wont know whether I am crying or is it just the rain.

I remember u told me at the very start of the relationship when my mum din like u and I wanted to break up with me "dun cry... shall I come and find u now? if i dun see u i feel very sad..." It was 12am. U said that. It touched my heart.

Now, i wanted to break up. U told me to give it one last try. I said ok. But after that, there wasnt ONE sms to ease my feelings. 1.5 years haf passed. Things seemed to haf changed.

Why in every relationship things haf to come to this point? U said last night u wish u never haf to see me sad again. But straight after that, U made me even more sad den i initially was. Its not because of wat u haf done. but wat u haf not done. Why was there not even ONE sms?

But its ok. Thanks to an idiot last time, It has made me a lot stronger. I really want to thank him. Because of that hard break up years ago, now i haf learnt to take things in my stride. Everything is peanuts compared to what I haf been thru. When tears slide down ur cheeks in the train, nobody will sympathize with u. U are just a wierd girl who cries in the train. So why do i cry for people who do not love me enough to care whether i am crying my eyes and heart out for them?