One thing I realized these few days is when one grows old, more problems come your way. I noe u probably gonna say i am talking crap cos tts common sense. But when you start to experience this yourself, you will understand that "problems" doesnt come at bad hair day level. Its life and death problems.
Yeah, I am being mysterious here. If you followed my blog closely, I mentioned this at the beginning of the year abt some serious problems. 8 months down the road and I can declare my problems not only did not end, but its 一波未平，一波又起。The scale increasing in maginimity (is there such a word?) Heck. Some may kind of know the things that I went through since Jan 2007, especially my dear who been there with me all the way. Actually, I wanna thank those ppl who gave me advice and stood by me when I was stranded in the sea of life. Thanks ppl.
Initially I lamented " God, why did you set me on contract teaching for a year, then NIE?" Why not let me go on permanent bond so that I can continue my studies at NIE immediately after I grad from NUS?"
Now I noe the ans. God has plans to shape me during my contract teaching and during this 1 year at NIE. He needs 2 years for me to go through the trials in life so that I am tough enough to survive in school when I finally grad.
My dad and mum told me sth 2 days back which made me smile. They said I really grew up. They were dumbfounded and amazed at how I rise to the occasion when there is a need. I always thought I was a silly little girl who was like a fly that lost its head. Now I realize, time and trials have made me stronger. Or rather, I was forced to be stronger. Life's test......
Sunday, August 26
Friday, August 10
Wasteful People Should Vanish From the Face of The Earth
Today, my mum excitedly showed me a bag full of clothes. Full of clothes that have the labels still on. Full of clothes that are of designer label. When I am talking abt designer labels, I am not talking about things like Adidas and Mphosis. I am talking about Armani Exchange. And what are these clothes for? Initially meant for the dump. U ask me why? I wonder why too.
My aunt works at a factory and these are some of the clothes that the clothes factory throws out at the end of the year. Brand new clothes with the tags still on. And I am not talking about 70s looking designs with quirky looking wind-breakers with the wrong colour combi. These are up-to-date jackets which teenagers like me (ok... maybe a bit past teen) may even considering buying at a mall if I see them at afforable rates.
BUT. My aunt wanted to throw it into the dump cos her "up-market" and "high-class" air stewardess daughter won't even take one look at them. No one wants it, except for their maid who tried to steal it when it landed into the rubbish bin previously. So my cousin thought, perhaps she should throw them away. But my aunt tot its such a waste and gave them to me sneakily (because the daughter rants madly if she gives).
So i just started to wonder... Why do some ppl have wierd mindset like... these clothes are mine, if i do not want them, i will not give them to other people too. But these clothes are new with tags still attached, designer labels. Yet, even when the other party doesn't mind having a few new clothes even if they were worn a few time, one REFUSES over her dead body to give them except to the garbage bin. It bugs me to see such wasteful people existing. Especially when I remember people dying in the cold and from hunger in some countries stark naked.
My aunt works at a factory and these are some of the clothes that the clothes factory throws out at the end of the year. Brand new clothes with the tags still on. And I am not talking about 70s looking designs with quirky looking wind-breakers with the wrong colour combi. These are up-to-date jackets which teenagers like me (ok... maybe a bit past teen) may even considering buying at a mall if I see them at afforable rates.
BUT. My aunt wanted to throw it into the dump cos her "up-market" and "high-class" air stewardess daughter won't even take one look at them. No one wants it, except for their maid who tried to steal it when it landed into the rubbish bin previously. So my cousin thought, perhaps she should throw them away. But my aunt tot its such a waste and gave them to me sneakily (because the daughter rants madly if she gives).
So i just started to wonder... Why do some ppl have wierd mindset like... these clothes are mine, if i do not want them, i will not give them to other people too. But these clothes are new with tags still attached, designer labels. Yet, even when the other party doesn't mind having a few new clothes even if they were worn a few time, one REFUSES over her dead body to give them except to the garbage bin. It bugs me to see such wasteful people existing. Especially when I remember people dying in the cold and from hunger in some countries stark naked.
Wednesday, August 8
Yo everyone!
I am back~! Actually u all noe why no posts recently?
1. Been super busy with content upgrading at NIE during the hols.
Its a crazy 3 weeks whereby 3 mods and 6 exams are being crammed. And its not as if its very easy. The 3 mods are in 繁体字 and some are in 白话 style cos they are ancient books. The 3 mods are 修辞，语法 and 文字学. 文字学 is the worst especially. Its all in 古文 and its like the entire 5000 history of china and its dynasty timeline and happenings to be forced into my head in 3 wks. First time i experience brain-ache. Its not even headache. Its deeper level.
2. I been surveying my blog, but no response from anyone in the tagboard. So I assumed no one has been checking on my blog, haha... so no motivation to blog. So if i noe ppl are constantly checking, I will come and blabber. But if no one reads, I feel like I am talking to myself.
Alright, so that's abt my VERY summarized 2 mths in 1 paragraph. Take note, my summary is improving! hehe..
Oh and regarding why change of look but no posts, that's cos I myself feel that the entire blog look pretty screwed up. And super NOT IT-savvy me had to bug Gerard to fix it for me. AND u guys noe waT? What I need to do in 1 day, he did in 1 min! I need kind frens like him.
So yea, now content upgrading is over and school has started, but not full blast yet since tutorials are not in yet, but I can almost feel the lecturers breathing down my neck. And u noe how it feels? Like as the time for assignment deadlines to draw near, their hands will be around ur neck, wringing you half-dead. I have 9 modules. 9 mind u! And assignments for all 9. But, I must say content up-grading was good training. I am so much more resilient now. I am going by Nike's slogan "Just Do It". No time to think. JUST DO IT.
I noe chewy has gone through this as well. But I still wanna say, NIE is still so much more fun then teaching in school. Cos the diff is in NIE, u can afford to stone for a while in class since u are not the one teaching. But in school teaching, u stone, u die.
I am so thankful for the new friends I made in NIE. Without them, I wonder how life will be like. Actually no need to wonder, I noe --- zombie-like. These ppl make me laugh so hard I wanna cry sometimes. And who said u cant make true frens after sec sch? These ppl supported me thru content upgrading. Studied with me in NTU canteen after lessons at 530 all the way to 930pm just to make sure I noe whats gg on for the 文字学 test the next day (since my head was empty that day. So empty that the tutor asked if there were any qns, I didn't. Why? Cos I din even noe whats going on in the first place.)
I am so grateful, grateful that beyond my XMS gang, I can still meet true ppl like these. =)
1. Been super busy with content upgrading at NIE during the hols.
Its a crazy 3 weeks whereby 3 mods and 6 exams are being crammed. And its not as if its very easy. The 3 mods are in 繁体字 and some are in 白话 style cos they are ancient books. The 3 mods are 修辞，语法 and 文字学. 文字学 is the worst especially. Its all in 古文 and its like the entire 5000 history of china and its dynasty timeline and happenings to be forced into my head in 3 wks. First time i experience brain-ache. Its not even headache. Its deeper level.
2. I been surveying my blog, but no response from anyone in the tagboard. So I assumed no one has been checking on my blog, haha... so no motivation to blog. So if i noe ppl are constantly checking, I will come and blabber. But if no one reads, I feel like I am talking to myself.
Alright, so that's abt my VERY summarized 2 mths in 1 paragraph. Take note, my summary is improving! hehe..
Oh and regarding why change of look but no posts, that's cos I myself feel that the entire blog look pretty screwed up. And super NOT IT-savvy me had to bug Gerard to fix it for me. AND u guys noe waT? What I need to do in 1 day, he did in 1 min! I need kind frens like him.
So yea, now content upgrading is over and school has started, but not full blast yet since tutorials are not in yet, but I can almost feel the lecturers breathing down my neck. And u noe how it feels? Like as the time for assignment deadlines to draw near, their hands will be around ur neck, wringing you half-dead. I have 9 modules. 9 mind u! And assignments for all 9. But, I must say content up-grading was good training. I am so much more resilient now. I am going by Nike's slogan "Just Do It". No time to think. JUST DO IT.
I noe chewy has gone through this as well. But I still wanna say, NIE is still so much more fun then teaching in school. Cos the diff is in NIE, u can afford to stone for a while in class since u are not the one teaching. But in school teaching, u stone, u die.
I am so thankful for the new friends I made in NIE. Without them, I wonder how life will be like. Actually no need to wonder, I noe --- zombie-like. These ppl make me laugh so hard I wanna cry sometimes. And who said u cant make true frens after sec sch? These ppl supported me thru content upgrading. Studied with me in NTU canteen after lessons at 530 all the way to 930pm just to make sure I noe whats gg on for the 文字学 test the next day (since my head was empty that day. So empty that the tutor asked if there were any qns, I didn't. Why? Cos I din even noe whats going on in the first place.)
I am so grateful, grateful that beyond my XMS gang, I can still meet true ppl like these. =)
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